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Jul. 28th, 2004 11:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinblokeI need a way to describe or post feelings.
If Livejournal is a progression, or at least it is for me, I need a way beyond text to formulate a feeling and leave it here for the ages, so I can come back and taste it once again.
This whole blogging thing has been a slow evolution of communication for me; each a step up beyond the previous, a larger footprint or "better" way to let loose my mind upon the world and sell tickets for front row seats at the same time.
There was paper, there was mailing lists and then there was a blog.
Not a particularly huge stage of evolution, but each one has been a greater outlet for my mind.
Thats it, the mind. I need a way to map thoughts to chemcials and recall them, reinject the mish mash of whatever is churning in my brain at point X and then recall it so I can taste it once again, metaphorically speaking, and use it to remap the words and thoughts that accompany it.
Maybe someday, maybe never.
But I can try with these words...
I'm disjointed, currently I feel like I'm a second person inside the shell of the first, my skin is... almost tingling slightly and my mind feels almost like I have a mild headache, but it's not unpleasant - it's more relaxing, comforting. My eyes have a slightly sluggish feel to them and I almost feel like I'm floating. Everything has a slow, careful feel about it and the world around me is very sharp, very clear; my mind is an open door at the moment - I can focus on a thing and concents and details leap into sharp attention, a curl of a leaf becomes a mirad of detail and lines and tangental possibilities.
That is my current mood at least, it's usually most inspired by music. I can be very creative in this mood, but it's also very good for making brain dumps and suchlike.
And no, I have eaten no sugar, drank no coffee nor taken any narcotics of any description - if you are wondering. This was purely brought on by a half thought which led to me putting on some music which carried me away to where I am now - emotionally speaking at least.
If Livejournal is a progression, or at least it is for me, I need a way beyond text to formulate a feeling and leave it here for the ages, so I can come back and taste it once again.
This whole blogging thing has been a slow evolution of communication for me; each a step up beyond the previous, a larger footprint or "better" way to let loose my mind upon the world and sell tickets for front row seats at the same time.
There was paper, there was mailing lists and then there was a blog.
Not a particularly huge stage of evolution, but each one has been a greater outlet for my mind.
Thats it, the mind. I need a way to map thoughts to chemcials and recall them, reinject the mish mash of whatever is churning in my brain at point X and then recall it so I can taste it once again, metaphorically speaking, and use it to remap the words and thoughts that accompany it.
Maybe someday, maybe never.
But I can try with these words...
I'm disjointed, currently I feel like I'm a second person inside the shell of the first, my skin is... almost tingling slightly and my mind feels almost like I have a mild headache, but it's not unpleasant - it's more relaxing, comforting. My eyes have a slightly sluggish feel to them and I almost feel like I'm floating. Everything has a slow, careful feel about it and the world around me is very sharp, very clear; my mind is an open door at the moment - I can focus on a thing and concents and details leap into sharp attention, a curl of a leaf becomes a mirad of detail and lines and tangental possibilities.
That is my current mood at least, it's usually most inspired by music. I can be very creative in this mood, but it's also very good for making brain dumps and suchlike.
And no, I have eaten no sugar, drank no coffee nor taken any narcotics of any description - if you are wondering. This was purely brought on by a half thought which led to me putting on some music which carried me away to where I am now - emotionally speaking at least.
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Date: 2004-07-28 12:02 pm (UTC)Simply put, your body and your brain are totally different, i mean your mind, as your brain is still a physical organ. but your mind is not tangible, it simply exists. You give an order, your brain passes the order into action, your body carries out the action. I feel all the time like, as you say, I am hovering somewhere deep in my head, not touching the sides and completely seperate from my body which, at the end of the day, has absolutely nothing to do with me. I just drive it. I think this is why I like being behind the wheel of a car so much, too, controlling from somewhere inside all this movement. and the path of the car itself is determined from my mind -> brain --> bod -->driving controls. roads too are very much like brain channels. sometimes I get where I'm going to quickly, sometimes it takes longer and takes some very strange routes. reactions are movements controlled by bodies, not minds, by your spinal cord I seemed to remember, so it has its own sense of self preservation. Self destruction, like drugs of ANY kind, self harm etc. I believe widen the gap and make you feel more floaty and further away from your cold, hard, logical, stupid looking body.