robinbloke | My eyes are wide open

Feelings are experiences like any other, we learn from them by experiencing them. Unlike other experiences however where we can read and learn or talk to friends about them these feelings are very personal and can't be conveyed to others as easily as other information regarding our lives. Each time we experience something we learn, it creates a kind of buffer zone or way that we deal with that feeling, be it love, hate, fear, surprise, happiness. Quite often the first time we experience a particular one of these intense isn't something we forget, it becomes marked in our minds as a kind of emotional milestone. This milestone marks the start of our understanding and dealing with that particular feeling, before it was never there, afterwards we are changed as our life has morphed to a larger range of feeling and possibility. If these new types of feeling are endless I can't say, certainly there only seems to be several basic types and once these are gone everything is a variation on these. But the feelings themselves all have the same primal twist in our stomach, they tug at the raw instinct of what we are and demand action and motion rather than rational thought, they ignore our carefully layered levels of logical experience and do bizarre things with our neurochemistry which can make people look at us strangely as we act out of character quite often. But are we this underlying thing, or are we the layers of logical and reason? Both and neither, obviously, but usually the two are at least in balance to some extent as we've generally learned that reason and logic work better to cope with today’s society that raw feeling and instant reactions. Generally. It's when these layers are swept away and we have to try and react rather than think that we change.
Or maybe we're just controlled by a screwed up bunch of tiny monkeys pulling levers in our brain for kicks, you tell me.