May. 23rd, 2002
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May. 23rd, 2002 03:06 pmMindless fog and concentration like a whisp, no thoughts except the time going down now, time to end of work, time until until until... until the world spins one way or another or it all comes crashing down; time to think but all the thoughts area tangled web of the same fears and questions, no distractions are working except stasis, alcohol and overboard; there is no middle. Don't want to be living in that song, no cup of coffee for me please; just wait, wait, wait, the silence of time slipping away and after? Like the apocolypse there can be no after, not right now. Try and concentrate, even trying to do work, just fuzzed all up. Need brain dump, let it all slip away into the oblivion of digital memories at least for a few minutes to try and give myself time to focus and apply what I know I could once do but now I can't because really nothing else matters. Heartbeat in my ears, worlds away, time apart, thoughts collide.
Game over.
Game over.