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Dec. 13th, 2001
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Dec. 13th, 2001 08:52 amHere we go, going to take you on a journey, like a train going down a hill, runaway down the hill; runaway be free, fly away. Hmmm, not particularly original that, drive away be free? Pedal away be free? Bungee away, be free? Bungee little fishy, bungee for all you're worth. Yes it's random rambling time once again folks, this time starring three pieces of cheddar, a countersunk T17 type stainless steel screw and a camel from alaska. Camels, camels, camels. Camels amuse me. I know not why. Camels amuse me, I think they should fly. Random pointless rhyming. Meh. Meeeeeh. Meeeeeeeeeh. Sheep, everywhere! Under the floorboards, spying for the FBI with their, with their... inflatible microphone technology.
Damn, my boss spoke to me and I lost my untrain of thought. Boo.
Back to the grindstone, It's COM and DAO object time, wahoo.
Don't look so excited.
Damn, my boss spoke to me and I lost my untrain of thought. Boo.
Back to the grindstone, It's COM and DAO object time, wahoo.
Don't look so excited.
Software Nazi's
Dec. 13th, 2001 03:37 pmSoup Nazi? No our MIS department (unlovingly refered to as MI5) have once agains truck gold.
My copy of MS-DEV is playing up, so I needed to reinstall.
Would they give me the disks so I could do this? Noooo
Do they have anyone in the office who is authorised to do this? (A re-install dammit!) Noooooo
Are they useless? [censored]
Can't even use it at the moment, and I needed the reinstall so I could compile some test Active-X stuff, without it I can do nowt.
Luckily I had an offsite backup...
Full reinstall
Clean new project, and still get...
D:\msdev\projects\active x\test\test.odl(1) : error MIDL2311 : statements outside library block are illegal in mktyplib compatability mode : [ ]
Bloomin' M$... right, off to the MSDN helpdesk again...
Clean new project, and still get...
D:\msdev\projects\active x\test\test.odl(1) : error MIDL2311 : statements outside library block are illegal in mktyplib compatability mode : [ ]
Bloomin' M$... right, off to the MSDN helpdesk again...
Vodka clarity
Dec. 13th, 2001 11:45 pmRegen my brain
never going to work
never is a long time
can I wait
I don't know
what else to do
live in that moment
live in the past
drink to the future
pass on the moment
treasure in a small cardboard box, wrapped in purple silks like some treasured family gift from ages past passed down through time enternal to the shred of the second you live in
There is only this moment
there is nothing else
no future past or present
it all is a lie
only this split insant can I trust
the rest of time, memory and the world is a facade
I can't believe in it any more
can I try and make it real?
I don't know where the start is or the end will be
The light at the end of the tunnel is flickering
The moment is going
The realisation is missing
no forwarding address
No second chances
no first chances
no chance
only time
only possibility
probability
50/50 takes the priority in the gamble of everything
place your bets now
Make your own history
make your own life
burn out and fade away
a charred lump on the ground
the ash of a shadow of a figure of a soul of a person
all blind, all unseeing, unhearing unthinking unknowing unlearning unbeing
nothing at this time
just sensing the existance of the world as it flows through my veins
the sweet drug of life itself
terminal
it will end
or will the moments pass through and out to pass on for whatever we can define as forever in the bleak context of life the universe and ourselves in this shred of tommorrow we see when we open our eyes and gaze as each second blinks to us as it rolls over us and the past screams past like the roar of the ocean in our ears as the hurricane rips our island apart
eternal storm
eternity is what we will be
a husk of life
a shred of a moment
a blink of the eye
no
yes
maybe
tri state
who knows what we can be or do or feel or share or taste
only defined by ourselves
by ourself
two four six eight
numbers and seconds that define us
or just more objects of abstraction
abstract life
abstract world
close or open your eyes
hold the flicker of a blin
strobe your existance onto the world
what you don't know can't exist
what you see can only be sensed through what you have
what you have can only be defined in the mind we use to plough our way like a furrow through the field of lifes path, digging a trail of memories, experiences and sowing seeds of contact through those we tough and influence
influence and subject
project what you want
project what you can
dig inside and taste the feelings buried there
do they flow or do they coil like a snake around your heart?
choking and sufficanting you as you move and live
free the feelings to open your mind
i hope i can make the right decision
never going to work
never is a long time
can I wait
I don't know
what else to do
live in that moment
live in the past
drink to the future
pass on the moment
treasure in a small cardboard box, wrapped in purple silks like some treasured family gift from ages past passed down through time enternal to the shred of the second you live in
There is only this moment
there is nothing else
no future past or present
it all is a lie
only this split insant can I trust
the rest of time, memory and the world is a facade
I can't believe in it any more
can I try and make it real?
I don't know where the start is or the end will be
The light at the end of the tunnel is flickering
The moment is going
The realisation is missing
no forwarding address
No second chances
no first chances
no chance
only time
only possibility
probability
50/50 takes the priority in the gamble of everything
place your bets now
Make your own history
make your own life
burn out and fade away
a charred lump on the ground
the ash of a shadow of a figure of a soul of a person
all blind, all unseeing, unhearing unthinking unknowing unlearning unbeing
nothing at this time
just sensing the existance of the world as it flows through my veins
the sweet drug of life itself
terminal
it will end
or will the moments pass through and out to pass on for whatever we can define as forever in the bleak context of life the universe and ourselves in this shred of tommorrow we see when we open our eyes and gaze as each second blinks to us as it rolls over us and the past screams past like the roar of the ocean in our ears as the hurricane rips our island apart
eternal storm
eternity is what we will be
a husk of life
a shred of a moment
a blink of the eye
no
yes
maybe
tri state
who knows what we can be or do or feel or share or taste
only defined by ourselves
by ourself
two four six eight
numbers and seconds that define us
or just more objects of abstraction
abstract life
abstract world
close or open your eyes
hold the flicker of a blin
strobe your existance onto the world
what you don't know can't exist
what you see can only be sensed through what you have
what you have can only be defined in the mind we use to plough our way like a furrow through the field of lifes path, digging a trail of memories, experiences and sowing seeds of contact through those we tough and influence
influence and subject
project what you want
project what you can
dig inside and taste the feelings buried there
do they flow or do they coil like a snake around your heart?
choking and sufficanting you as you move and live
free the feelings to open your mind
i hope i can make the right decision
