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robinblokeThat situation where something sticks into your mind and no matter how much you try it just keeps coming back, you'll be stuck with it in your head. Already having likely thought about it dozens of times before and come to the same conclusions over and over again but it won't go away. Sometimes this is because you're trying to find a different reason or acceptable view for something that you haven't yet, or other times it's just because there is no reason; it's bothering you, you've done and dusted it but your mind doesn't want to let it sleep. I am a believer in that there isn't a reason for everything, to a large extent reason denotes purpose, and as a self confessed born again cynic this means that existance simply is rather than existing for some great cosmic plan1. This means that things don't happen for reasons, people have four fingers and a thumb because this is what chaos and evolution has landed us with as much as anything else. Mentally speaking the optimum number of things we can (allegedly) concentrate on is seven, or have seven choices - so why not have six fingers and a thumb? Not why or because, it just is. Of course there could be some hidden biological reason here that I'm ignorant of, but this is a subjective example rather than a delve into the ins and outs of the human psychology.
Suffice it to say that given a sufficiently complex system at some point the sheer number of variables present in that system will generate a chaos like system whereby only a certain level of control can be present. Huge changes can happen that can effect the whole system seemingly randomly from previously ignored input sources just from the freak of the whole butterfly effect, and our mind is certainly not a very simple thing at all, so why can't simple things can certainly tie up large amounts of time in our head for no reason whatsoever. We do like to think at times that we have control to some degree over who we are, or at least what we are thinking, but reactionary responses from us when drunk, surprised, distracted or similarly otherwise engaged will often be totally out of character. This is probably due to the left/right brain distinction. Which, from what little I know, basically boils down to the left hand side being the logical, learning side and the right hand side being the reactionary emotive side. The left filters output to the right and vice versa, through some wee little bundle of nerves that I can't for the life of me remember the name of.
Then again life is a filter in a lot of ways, a lot of what we see and do is shut out as we ignore or only see what we want, even subconsciously. Stop and look around occasionally, even at your desk, count the specks of dust on your keyboard or see if you actually do know how many people are in the office. Events go on, things change and sometimes we catch them. Control and use of this information and filtering it carefully can help, but emotions are rarely this helpful, quite often they dump themselves into our brain and squat there causing us untold annoyance as we try and deal with them.
So, I've been in a mind loop. Removing it is proving to be pretty difficult, it keeps coming back and I'm getting increasingly annoyed at myself for spending too much time thinking about it. I'd dealt with it and it was gone, but no, my brain in it's infinite2 wisdom has decided that this is to be done over and over until I go stark raving bonkers, it seems. Well thank you very much brain, who asked you anyway - apart from myself since I am talking about and using the very organ I am complaining about in a circular context here, which is sort of strange. Other avenues I suppose is one way of dealing with these loops, but they can just make it worse from speculation as well. It's a rigged game I tell you.
No neurons were harmed in the course of this random wibble.
1 Which, I fully admit, I could be wrong about.
2 I should be so lucky3, or possibly unlucky.
3 Lucky, lucky, lucky... ahhh, song in my head
Suffice it to say that given a sufficiently complex system at some point the sheer number of variables present in that system will generate a chaos like system whereby only a certain level of control can be present. Huge changes can happen that can effect the whole system seemingly randomly from previously ignored input sources just from the freak of the whole butterfly effect, and our mind is certainly not a very simple thing at all, so why can't simple things can certainly tie up large amounts of time in our head for no reason whatsoever. We do like to think at times that we have control to some degree over who we are, or at least what we are thinking, but reactionary responses from us when drunk, surprised, distracted or similarly otherwise engaged will often be totally out of character. This is probably due to the left/right brain distinction. Which, from what little I know, basically boils down to the left hand side being the logical, learning side and the right hand side being the reactionary emotive side. The left filters output to the right and vice versa, through some wee little bundle of nerves that I can't for the life of me remember the name of.
Then again life is a filter in a lot of ways, a lot of what we see and do is shut out as we ignore or only see what we want, even subconsciously. Stop and look around occasionally, even at your desk, count the specks of dust on your keyboard or see if you actually do know how many people are in the office. Events go on, things change and sometimes we catch them. Control and use of this information and filtering it carefully can help, but emotions are rarely this helpful, quite often they dump themselves into our brain and squat there causing us untold annoyance as we try and deal with them.
So, I've been in a mind loop. Removing it is proving to be pretty difficult, it keeps coming back and I'm getting increasingly annoyed at myself for spending too much time thinking about it. I'd dealt with it and it was gone, but no, my brain in it's infinite2 wisdom has decided that this is to be done over and over until I go stark raving bonkers, it seems. Well thank you very much brain, who asked you anyway - apart from myself since I am talking about and using the very organ I am complaining about in a circular context here, which is sort of strange. Other avenues I suppose is one way of dealing with these loops, but they can just make it worse from speculation as well. It's a rigged game I tell you.
No neurons were harmed in the course of this random wibble.
1 Which, I fully admit, I could be wrong about.
2 I should be so lucky3, or possibly unlucky.
3 Lucky, lucky, lucky... ahhh, song in my head
