Slightly drunk and it's past 1 am

Something I need to remember, and hope I alays will

Silence
Darkness
Eyes closed
Nerves tingling
Time stands still
Warmth
Presence
Movement
A single breath
Nearby
Next to me
Words don't explain this sort of thing
Feelings can't be rendered in crude language
Memories just become sullied by it
But I try anyway
Just to remember
I'd die in that moment
If I could
To live it forever
In a final breath

Amelie

Saw this last night; a simply wonderful film.

No hollywoodism, no explosions, no guns, no OTT, you could almost relate it to real life (except sadly real life doesn't work like the film does)

Wonderous, go watch it today

Also it looks like I've managed to crawl back to my usual late night bedtimes, huzah, another blow struck against the evil that is sleep.

Lyrics...

From morning to night I stayed out of sight
Didn't recognise what I'd become
No more than alive I'd barely survive
In a word...overrun

Won't hear a sound
From my mouth
I've spent too long
On the inside out
My skin is cold
To the human touch
This bleeding heart's
Not beating much

I murmured a vow of silence and now
I don't even hear when I think aloud
Extinguished by light I turn on the night
Wear its darkness with an empty smile

I'm creeping back to life
My nervous system all away
I'm wearing the inside out

Look at him now
He's paler somehow
But he's coming round
He's starting to choke
It's been so long since he spoke
Well he can have the words right from my mouth

And with these words I can see
Clear through the clouds that covered me
Just give it time then speak my name
Now we can hear ourselves again

I'm holding out
For the day
When all the clouds
Have blown away
I'm with you now
Can speak your name
Now we can hear
Ourselves again

He's curled into the corner
But still the screen is flickering
With an endless stream of garbage to
...curse the place
In a sea of random images
The self-destructing animal
Waiting for the waves to break

He's standing on the threshold
Caught in fiery anger
And hurled into the furnace he'll
...curse the place
He's torn in all directions
And the screen is still flickering
Waiting for the flames to break

English ponderings

My English is not the greatest in the world and something is beginning to irk me about my recent trend in sentances.

The phrase "that that" is beginning to bug me almost on a scale of "lowly says" (Don't even start me on this one) worse still, because I'm doing it.

As I was taught it is bad practise in ones English to repeat the same word twice after one another in a sentance, that said I believe using the same adjective twice in a paragraph should be frowned upon and a thesaurus is an essential addition to any writers, casual or otherwise, armoury.

Anyway, "that that" is bugging me.

I include here by way of example an extract from a recent reply I put to a reply to a post in my LJ (phew, what a mouthful)

"...so frankly I'll babble about just about anything here - not that that is particularly unusual."

Now I've been trying to avoid using "that that" recently, principally by use of "that is" and suchlike, but in this context I fail to see how I can (simply) reword the the offending sentance and still maintain the meaning intended.

"...so frankly I'll babble about just about anything here - not that that is particularly unusual."

Any suggestions anyone? Perhaps the entire second half of the sentance is ill-advised and should have be been restructured to something like

"...so frankly I'll babble about just about anything here - but that is not particularly unusual."

Any suggestions?

Spleen

Noun: Spleen
1. A large dark-red oval organ on the left side of the body between the stomach and the diaphragm; produces cells involved in immune responses
2. A feeling of resentful anger
3. Highly amusing word for no adequately explored reason