The reason behind the rhyming of the mind of chaos

[robinbloke]

Structure and predictability and a long way from the level that I think I'll ever be with my life and my mind. The random quirks and thoughts that flicker through occasionally. Or just when I suddenly stop and have this spark burning in the back of my mind, a flame of inspiration that I have to use and write down before it splutters and fades away.

I'm used to these, moments, I suppose, in a way they've been growing more prolific or at least I've been trying to use them more, cease them when they do appear and go with it. I've also been trying to see if I can invoke them, coax them out artificially. Now if I could just generate them with a snap of my fingers I don't think I would; part of their... charm? wonder? joy? is that I don't know when they will hit, what I can recognise now, however, is when they are rising up earlier or when one of them is about to try and seed itself in my mind.

When it does I try to encourage it, nurture and pull it out from the subconscious reserve of... whatever or wherever makes it and let it blossom in a whirlwind of randomness and creativity. Now I know I'm not creating the Sistine chapel when these moments flourish, but they are my moments and its the feeling of possibility that burns inside me when they are there that is as wonderful as the act and result of that creativity that is so special.

Thus it doesn't matter at the moment if I produce a poem that makes tears wet the cheeks of all who read it or a two page garbled morass of words and murmurings that put English grammar to the sword, it's still creativity, it's all from the moment - just the direction is different.
I think eventually I'd like to be able to direct them, point these moments at an idea or style when they arrive, but for now just the raw feeling of creativity is a feeling of being... alive more than warrants tarnishing it by trying to guide where it falls.

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[magic-zebedee.livejournal.com]

Apparently you went home ill just beofre we arrived at the last Calling so just a note to say thank you another million times and to assure you the movie and cravatte are safe and we will try and get them to you ASAP. Was going to come to film club at yours but got some kind of death type flu :( Still recovering but bought a very expensive scarf today to keep my sore throat warm and the retail therapy did wonders...the trip to Forbidden Planet for several comics helped too!
See you soon
N and V :)

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[robinbloke.livejournal.com]

Ah, evil killer death flu from Mars was why I left early :( Hope you feel better soon and no rush with the video and cravatte :)

[kamikazifreak.livejournal.com]

I know that feeling. I love it when I get it, although I don't always have the chance to write it down. I get it in a variety of ways, from one-liners to solutions to problems. One of the best times I can remember was a few years ago at band camp. My roommate Jim had brought a small desklamp for use at night after the normal lights-out time, but about halfway through the week, the bulb burnt out. For some reason, when it happened, it sparked an idea in my head.
Me: "here, let me see that."
Jim: "Why?"
Me: "I wanna see something."
Jim: "..."
I looked at the bulb and noticed it was a slightly different kind than most. It was designed like this:

Jim: "Dude, you're not gonna fix it."
Me: (still staring at the lightbulb with a growing smile on my face)
Jim: "There is no way you're going to fix that."

I saw that the filament was broken right near one of those support wires. I carefully shook the bulb, and managed to catch one end of the filament in the wire loop, and get the other end to contact the wire farther up it.
Me: "I fixed it."
Jim: "I can't believe this..."

I plugged the lamp back in, and turned it on.
It worked.

Jim: (staring in disbelief)


That was fun.

[robinbloke.livejournal.com]

Fantastic, sounds like a zen moment of repairwork indeed. I've not had anything like that at all, I suppose I have trained mine in a way as most of them are expressed as writing...

Incidentally, do I know you from anywhere?

[kamikazifreak.livejournal.com]

No, not really. I was searching some of my interests a while ago on lj, and saw a piratey name, so I looked. It just happened to be when you posted a comic about pirate ninjas. So I added that post to memories, and looked at it again recently, which made me think to look here again for interesting things.

[robinbloke.livejournal.com]

Aha, werl, the entertainment continues, as scheduled.