Still alive...

Well, survived yesterday, one of the best and worse days of my life... better today, it'll get better I suppose, with time, but then sometimes you don't want it to, the hurt is a reminder of how good it felt, the comedown.

Sometimes you want something you can't have, and you realise in order to make sure a moment isn't spoiled you have to look to other peoples futures, not just your own.

Alcohol and chocolate isn't going to help this.